God has never been dead. Pushed aside, ignored, defamed, and a few other things for certain but never dead. He is the Alpha and the Omega. He was present before the earth was formed and man existed. I can’t fathom it. Can you? He has existed for all time and eternity. I’m sure the question “Where was He when “this or that” happened?” Well, I can tell you where He was but would you believe me? Could you accept the words that are coming out of my mouth? Please, leave me a comment telling me the TRUTH about your perception of where God was during whatever struggles you were going through.
My God’s not dead
He’s surely alive
He’s living on the inside
Roaring like a lion
God’s not dead
He’s surely alive
He’s living on the inside
Roaring like a lion
Roaring, He’s roaring, He’s roaring like a lion
Let hope arise and make the darkness hide
My faith is dead I need resurrection somehow
Now I’m lost in Your freedom
In this world I’ll overcome
God’s Not Dead – Newsboys
God lives in us all. I have shaken Him awake inside of me. Now, I feel more alive than ever. I am free. I’m not perfect though. Please, don’t think that I have a God complex or confuse my faith with self-righteousness. I am human. I have flaws. I have faults. I am DEFINITELY not perfect. Nor do I wish to be. Perfect is boring. Like Barbie. That doll has it all. Except she has no soul. Hahaha!
There is a revolution happening inside my heart. I can feel the battle raging. God wants my heart. He is calling me to Him and I am heading in His direction. One step at a time.
“He restores my soul. He leads me in paths of righteousness for his name’s sake.” – Psalm 23:3
When I look around, I realize that God has been present in my life the entire time. He’s been waiting for me to ask Him to intervene in my life and restore me to Him. God has more patience with me than I can possibly understand! As much as I want to believe I am an awful person, simply based upon the things I’ve done in the past, my heart knows that I have been forgiven and the past has been erased by God. I’m not a bad person; I’ve just made some bad decisions and the consequences have drawn me nearer to God.
“So I find it to be a law that when I want to do right, evil lies close at hand.” – Romans 7:21
How true that is! I find myself walking right into the thick of temptation when I’m trying to stay focused on God. Thankfully, my Father in Heaven always provides a way out for me. In my mindfulness of Him, I find myself growing stronger in my faith and the boundaries I have set. I need God more than ever before. Wait, I’ve always needed Him; I just haven’t allowed Him into my life consistently. Now, He’s roaring like a lion inside of me. I have woken God up!
“Remember, then, what you received and heard. Keep it, and repent. If you will not wake up, I will come like a thief, and you will not know at what hour I will come against you.” – Revelation 3:3
Maybe He has woken me up. My eyes are completely open to see where I need to repent. For that, I am grateful to Him.
“Wake up from your drunken stupor, as is right, and do not go on sinning. For some have no knowledge of God. I say this to your shame.” – 1 Corinthians 15:34
When I first got on my knees a couple of weeks ago, I cried. My heart was hurting. My soul felt empty. I was dead on the inside, which could only mean that God was laying dormant. I couldn’t feel anything. I couldn’t feel love. I couldn’t feel compassion. I couldn’t feel anything other than the deadening of my soul. Deep within the recesses of my brain, I knew something needed to change: Me. I had to ask God to come back into my life. I did just that. Now, He’s present with a vengeance.
“O Lord, God of vengeance, O God of vengeance, shine forth!” – Psalm 94:1
He is ever present in my thoughts now. I can see and feel His presence in my daily activities. My language has changed. I think yesterday is the first time in several days that I thought the “f” word in my head. It didn’t come out of my mouth though! Oh thank you, Jesus! I’m notorious for the “f-bomb”, especially at work. Having God in my heart and creating a new heart for me has made me mindful of how I present God to others. He is alive on the inside of me!
“Create in me a clean heart, O God, and renew a right spirit within me.” – Psalm 51:10
This Is All Of Me 