Wise men say, only fools rush in
But I can’t help, falling in love with you
That’s such a good song by Elvis Presley.
Are we foolish for falling in love with someone? What makes love foolish? Is love only a game for fools?
It’s easy to love someone. My friend K once said that I am a very easy person to love. Looking back on my life and relationship history, (sorry if I sound narcissistic here), I can see how someone could fall in love with me.
As I’ve gotten older and have experienced the hardships of life, falling in love hasn’t been easy. I’ve been more jaded and cynical about love. I can love someone I care about fairly easy but it’s a different kind of love. It’s a way for me to say “I care about you”, “I’m concerned about your wellbeing”, or “I want to know what is going on in your life”.
It’s not necessarily about romantic love and intimacy. It’s a way for me to draw closer to those I genuinely care about.
I’ve surrounded myself with an invisible wall over the last several years. My heart has been barricaded and I’ve not had a reason to take a sledgehammer to the bricks. It’s as if a cast-iron chastity cage has been erected and oxidized with no hope for rusty disintegration.
Love is a risk. I believe my walls have come down, brick by brick but the cage is still around my heart.
Am I a fool for falling? Or is it the wisest thing I could do for an amazing man who deserves my whole heart?